So since I started this whole thing a mere 17 days ago there have been alot of things that I have noticed and thought that I guess I never noticed or thought before. The first thought is people are genuine!! I think I have always thought that people say things but don't really mean them, and honestly including me!! Through this whole thing in 17 days I have felt so unbelievably supported as I have this time!! I do hope that people realize how important that is to me even if I dont' say so. I think this is something I have always thought I would do alone but I realize that it is the little things that people either write on my Facebook or here and things they say to me in person that are really helping me continue!
I have, like every fat person, thought that at some point in my life this switch would flip in my head or stomach and I would just have a mindset to just do it and not have any worries. Guess what there is no switch!! There is nothing that will say to me exercise, eat right, take your time. There is not going to be some hot trainer coming to my house to whip me into shape and I am pretty sure I am never going to love exercising!!! But there has been something different this time than any other time before. I really want this!!
Today when I got home I started thinking if I continue to lose 3 lbs a week which I hope I do I should be close to 100 lbs smaller by Christmas. In my mind I am not sure I can fathom that. The other thought is that I have a child who is prone to obesity because it is prevalent on both sides of his family and for some reason this time I feel like it is my responsibility to be a better example than I have ever been. I have let him down up until this point even though that may not be how he feels!!
I was told I need to be more positive with myself and say positive things. I think doing this and saying what I feel is positive. I think being so easy on myself and thinking I don't look that bad for a fat girl and being positive throughout this has kept me at this weight for so long. So when you read this and I you think I am being negative remember that I am being positive in my own way for this to get to the point I need it to be. I don't have Dolvett here to yell at me so in a sense this is my version. But please please please continue to say things and write to me and respond to things. It really is helping in ways you have no idea, but I hope in the end you will be able to share in the ways you have helped!!!!!
Here's my take: I thought you were beautiful when I first met you. I think you're a beautiful woman now. You are made in the image of God! This adventure you're on is not about wanting to look better; it's about living longer, healthier, and more energetically. And you're doing amazing so far!
ReplyDeleteIn terms of a life-changing journey like the one you're taking, a very wise person once said: "You do have to start on your own. You don't have to do it alone."
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