Who do you think you are???

Well tonight after going to the gym for an hour and a half I headed to Xavier's basketball game. When I got there my dad was there and he was sitting in a chair and then he had to leave so I sat down in the chair. When halftime came this older woman gets up and walks over and stands by me and starts talking how she had to get up and walk around and then I am not kidding you she looks at me with this look that clearly says "Shouldn't you get up off your butt fatgirl!" I am not exaggerating. So I looked back at her and calmly said "Well I am welcoming the chance to sit because I just came from the gym." Again I kid you not she said to me "Well it must be hard just starting out!"and in her head the sentence ended with"at your weight". I have to tell you I could have strangled her. How dare her!! I may be a big girl but I am not just starting out!! I wanted to say "You know what lady I have been struggling with this my entire life and I don't know who you think you are and unless you are Dolvett standing here telling me this to get my butt off the chair I think you better check yourself!!!" But I didn't. I just looked at her and smiled because she had no idea that when you say something like that to a fat girl it isn't a casual conversation it seems like an attack.
 So hence comes the title of my post. I know you are thinking I was thinking that(Who do you think you are) about this woman and honestly yes I was at first and then I realized "this is who I am" I am the fat girl sitting in the chair that probably gives the impression that I dont' move or work or exercise but I know that NOW that isn't who I am but that was who I was to some degree. I have always worked even as a big girl, even when I didn't want to. I have always been somewhat athletic up until the last few years. But that is not who I am not. Who do I think I am? I am a single mother of a sweet 16 year old son. I am a woman with low self esteem, who works to provide for my son. I am the daughter of two amazing and wonderful parents that I have often taken for granted. I am a friend not always a great friend but I will always love my friends.I am a woman who craves the love of a man and to have a bigger family. I am a girl who has had a life long relationship with food that has put me in the place where I am trying to figure out who I am and to make sure that Who I am to become is somewhere in me. I used to quote a comedian because I always thought it was kind of funny and it was a good way for me to cover up how I truly felt about myself. Here is the quote. "They say inside every fat girl there is a skinny girl trying to get out. Not me I done fried her up and ate her" I always felt this saying was a way to fight how I felt about being fat and that I was ok with my weight when in the reality of things I would look at skinny girls and wonder what she did right that God allowed her to be skinny and what did I do that I deserved to be so big? With that I have to say God didn't make me fat. I made myself fat. However I am fully relying on God to give me the strength to be a healthier smaller girl. I may never be "skinny" but I can be smaller and healthier. So who do I think I am? I am me trying to be a better me and mom and friend!!! So Who do you think you are?