OHHHH BOY!!

Well vacation has come and gone and I have been lazy in all areas of my life. I haven't been to the gym since just before vacation. I did however on vacation walk a million miles it seemed and I did water aerobics a couple of times and then when I couldn't make that I would get in the pool and run laps. I know that sounds kind of weird but the depth of the pool was about chest level and there was lots of resistance.With that all being said I came back and gained 1.8 pounds. I wasn't happy but I wasn't horribly upset that is until this week. This week I had a limited budget and limited things in the fridge but I tried to make things as low cal and low fat as possible, and I honestly thought I had done better with my food. The truth is I haven't been to the gym. As much as I hate to say I think it is a combination of both food and exercise, I am seeing that this is truly the case. So hopefully I can get myself back into eating right and exercising this week. Oh yeah I gained another 1.5 pounds which really sucks but it is just showing me I need to get back into the grove. The problem is I have no motivation. I am already dreading the thought of getting into my gym clothes and actually going to the gym. The thought really frustrates me. I can't decide what is more frustrating right now the weight I have gained or my lack of motivation to stay on track. Where can I go from here? It really would be so easy to give up but after our trip to Mexico I realize how much more I can do with the weight I have already lost and thinking about what I could do once I lose more is helpful but I still don't have the power behind it to make me do what needs to be done. Help!!!!!!!!!!!