Saturday, February 18, 2012

It's about time.......

I forgot to say in my last post that I am at 12 pounds down so 288. Honestly I have been here before and it is usually about this time I hit a wall and plateau. When that happens I get really frustrated and want to stop and usually I do. I am NOT going to do that this time. I just had a discussion with Xavier and us staying on track and I think with all the support from the friends, family and co-workers that I am getting I am hoping I can just keep going. I am going to be 42 on March 16th and by then I am hoping to be down to under 280. I am going to visit my friend Amy and Julie that weekend and I would like to feel somewhat more comfy in the airplane seat than I have in the past. I have mentioned in the past how much I love to fly but how embarrassing it is to have to ask for a seat belt extender and I hate sitting next to people I don't know because I am in my head thinking they are thinking " OH great I have to sit next to the one fatty on the plane" I am sure that isn't always the case but when your fat that is kind of always going thru your head even though it may not be the case. Well enough whining about being fat because I wanted to share that for the first time in this whole adventure someone walked up to me and asked me if I was losing weight!! I was so excited inside but kind of downplayed it. It was a lady that works for the OR but not in the OR so I don't see her on a daily basis so it was nice. She came out and asked me if I was losing weight and she said she recognized my hair but thought something looked different and then when she saw my face she said she could tell I was losing weight. I truly downplayed it and said I was trying and talked about the fact we are doing Biggest loser at church and how important it is to have the support and I can honestly say that it has been helpful. It really is nice for someone to recognize that you are working hard and that they can see the changes. I try to tell Xavier how great he looks since he started and how I can tell that his uniforms are fitting better and he is looking so much better and I do see it and I hope he sees and keeps on trying.
 Well last night I went to church to drop Xavier off for the church allnighter and one of the guys that goes to church (not knowing someone else had said something) said to me "You can tell your losing weight I can see it in your face. Good job. Keep up the good work" He has no idea how much that meant. That even though I was sick and irritated with my teen it was nice to hear someone else say that. It is hard when you don't see it other than a mere 12 pounds on the scale but when other say they can see it it really means so much. I so hope in a couple of months it will really be noticeable to me and others. I just wanted to take this opportunity to thank everyone again. I still really need the encouragement and the cheerleading as much as I did the first couple of weeks. I feel like some of us are losing motivation and I am going to work on getting everyone excited again for it this week. Again please keep up with the encouragement. I know I shouldn't ask but it really does help me keep perspective. Here's hoping to alittle weight loss this week. I only got to the gym twice because of schedules and then I got this stupid cold and I haven't felt like it but I have kept on track with my eating I think so I am hoping for alittle loss. How much does snot weigh because my head is full of it? I should be able to take a pound or 2 off for that!! Well on that note.... I will say goodnight and hopefully I can report a weight loss tomorrow.

1 comment:

  1. Woohoo! It's such a great feeling when you know people are starting to notice the difference! And from experience, I know that more people are noticing but are afraid to say something just yet.
    If you haven't yet, I suggest taking photos of yourself so you can see the progress yourself. I think things we don't see in the mirror, we sometimes see in photos. I personally hope you'll share progress photos either here or on fb soon, but at least have them for yourself.

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